Maybe I think entirely too much. I could very well be the case. It could be the case that I think so much that I will always view my life as flawed.
What if I'm not thinking too hard? What if this is exactly how my mind should function? I am beginning to think that this is the case...
When I survey my personal character, life, thought processes, etc & I cast them against the wall of normalcy (ie, everyone else), I seem to notice something peculiar. I am an oddity. This run-on sentence should explain it perfectly: I am a tattooed, pierced, passionate Follower of Christ with a heart for the Church, Social Reform & Literature, writing a very Harry Potteresque novel that I pray will reveal Jesus to masses of people that are far from God at the same time, also pastors a church that challenges its gatherers to live Christ-Centered lives while having a heart that breaks & beats alongside His for what His heart breaks over & beats for.
That's only the half of it, but I hope it gave you an idea. Sometimes, when I look at the lives of others & I cast myself against normalcy, I feel alone. I feel like I'm the only one of my kind & that I could be unintentionally doing wrong by the way my life is modeled. I don't know any pastors who will sit & salivate over Alexandre Dumas' The Count of Monte Cristo or give an entire lecture on the Chrristological qualities of Harry Potter & the Philosopher's Stone. I don't know any Christians that would rather listen to Make Yourself by Incubus rather than The I Heart Revolution by Hillsong because they think the content of the Incubus album is a bit more challenging & pleasant to the ears. I just don't.
As of late, I have grown comfortable in my nature as a misfit & with it all, hope to be pleasing to God through Christ. If you're like me, heed my words. You are odd. You are wierd. You are beautiful. You have been made that way in order to serve God as an individual & it is not necessary to have to fit the mold to do so. Glorify God in your individuality & shine! You may hold the key to reaching the unreachable!
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